I am at a point right now in life where I haven’t been watching television except for the rare morning St. Louis news or whatever home renovation show my parents are watching or Dr. Pimple Popper. I blame my niece, Kaia for my mom’s obsession with that show. So, without the distraction of television I filled my time for three and a half years with cross stitch. I was a stitching maniac. I bought every stitching pattern, fabric, thread I could get my hands on. Prior to that I spent the four previous years obsessed with oracle and tarot cards and learning those systems of divination. Before that it was reading and I can attest to my never ending book hoard that comprise the eight bookshelves I have crammed in my room.
Based on these things I have an understanding about myself and the law of attraction. What you focus on becomes your world, if only for a short time. And the more you focus on it, the more invested you get.
I had a Facebook memory pop up today from 2013. Here is what it said:
I pulled the Self Control- Higher Self card today and that is telling us that you ultimately have control of your day. Who are you allowing into your space to trigger you into stinking thinking? My pastor used to say that the people you hang out with and the books you read, tv shows you watch, whatever has your attention really colors your world. So how are YOU contributing to your good or bad mood today? Because ultimately it is up to you. You choose to react or not to situations. Turn that stinking thinking upside down today.
Right before I saw this, I had a private message pop up with a link to a video saying “Is this you?” with three shocked emojis as ominous exclamation points. Apparently the person had been hacked but it had done its job and taken me aback. Being uncovered as a former oracle and tarot reader, a reader that is reviving her practice at it, sort of threatens another part of my life where I sing in my church’s worship team. To me these two things go together like peanut butter and jelly, but I fear to others it might cause a bit of a kerfuffle that I am not doing the right “Christian” thing by being a reader.
I was immediately reminded from an image I received in a dream last night:
Dream message: I saw a music cassette tape with a label that said Be Afraid. I see this as old thoughts past their time, like mice running on a wheel. Time to let go of the protection behind being afraid and truly move forward without fear.
Then I was prompted to do a tarot reading for myself using the Tarot of the Hidden Realm cards. The first card was the 4 of Wands. I saw a person in my mind’s eye holding their fingers in their ears with their eyes closed muttering “la la la la” over and over. The next card was the 4 of Cups. I laughed at the understanding at my reading. The Four of Cups is about not paying attention to the ideas surrounding you.
My dream said “Do Not Be Afraid.” And the cards said, don’t pay attention to those things that pop up today. Close your eyes to them and focus on something else. I felt a lot of relief at that.
Here was my post to Twitter today:
Energy Observations. You are in control. I see a person with their fingers in their ears chanting "la la la la." Someone is trying to out you, reveal your secrets. Pay them no heed . Either the time has come to face the music or not. You are okay either way.
I know I have not completely dealt with my fears. I know that I may have to let something go in order to move forward on my ultimate path. The future sounds scary but I know how these things sometimes go… I will fear it and fear it and fear it and then when push comes to shove and what I fear is uncovered and revealed, it’s never as monstrous as I thought it was going to be.
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